It's probably pretty clear that soaping is my passion. I adore making this shit. If I go for some time without making a loaf of soap, I will actually get cranky. I thoroughly enjoy making soap and bath and body products - I don't know that I will ever give it up! I find it therapeutic, satisfying, amazingly calming... which keeps me from hurting people, so that's cool.
What you may not know is that I also have a day job. I'm a corporate hussy. I've been employed at a pretty major PNW employer for 20 years now and I'm still there today. I have a 40-hour a week Monday through Friday day job. And it sucks. Don't get me wrong, it pays extremely well, it has amazing benefits, 401k, Pension - the whole enchilada. I'm extremely fortunate to have what I have, I know so many would give their left arm for my job. I am thankful and grateful - but if I'm being completely honest with myself, it's also a real drag. I get up at 4am every morning, I am showered, put together and out the door before everyone else in the house is even up out of bed. I don't get to help my daughter get ready for her day or kiss my husband goodbye in the morning. I come home exhausted and pissed off over the lame corporate bullshit du jour and some random feeling of defeat (I don't even know why, but it's there) and then I shove it aside so that I can say hi to my daughter for the first time that day and then make dinner and help her with her homework and talk about her day. Then I clean up after dinner and tidy up a bit, maybe throw a load of clothes in the dryer.
Then - I get to make soap. Or I get to cut soap. Or I get to make lip balm, or maybe some lotions, or scrubs, or bubble scoops - or SOMETHING. I look forward to it all day! I sit at my desk during the day modifying the same damn Excel chart for the 43rd damn time for someone, all the while dreaming about what soap I'm going to make that night. By the end of the week, I am exhausted. I'm just pooped from 4am alarm clocks and the demands of the Corporate Bullshit (check out the link. It's an actual book - no royalties or affiliate links, I just really enjoy the photo. If you read it, let me know if it's good). It wears me down by the end of the week, but I still make the soap - not because I have to, but because I want to.
It's hard to juggle it all! A family, a full time job, and a nearly full time side hustle full of passion. Why do I do it? Because I love it. Because I love it and because my dream is to ditch the corporate bullshit someday. To wake up at a reasonable hour, to be here for my daughter, to be able to schedule work and life as work and life happens, not within a 40 hour work week window. What it must feel like to wake up every day and truly love what you get to do for a living! I hope I get to find out. I know WHAT it is, I just hope I get to LIVE it someday.
Do you have a passion you get to pursue? How are you making your dreams come true?